Hiding in the darkness...

Yes this post is forced.
I really don't know why I am doing such a thing.
Maybe I am confused and is willing to give up
Or maybe I would want to forget everything.

Sometimes, life can be so sad
Everything seems so wrong and bad.
You wake up each morning with a heavy heart
You live your monotonous day
As time eats your soul away...

You always prepare
But is seems you're always in despair...
You confront life with a blank stare
Not knowing what to do
Or who to come to
Everything seems so wrong and bad,
So life can be sometimes sad...

And at the end of each day,
You kneel down and pray.
But you wonder if there is really much sense
In that gesture you are in...
You feel the usual tense
That you are thinking about these things a little too hard...

Life is unfair as you know it.
But what am I supposed to do?
You always get confused along the way
You live your monotonous day
As time eats your soul away...

And you wonder about your friends
But insecurites set in and bite...
"deserving of a person sustaining might?"
You really wonder about everything...
Wonder what kind of pain you will feel tomorrow..
And wonder until when you will be able to keep it all in...
And you tell yourself your worthlessness
That time is all but in vain in your presence...
You live your monotonous day
As time slowly eats you away
And slowly decays your essence...

But you tell yourself to fight the feelings to change
And in return, you gain some sight.
Sight that was darkened by the delusion
Of a very unreal emancipation which really gave you everything you wanted...
You look at your back and see the happiness the delusion gave you
All the people in their glee.
Fireworks soar to the sky
People rejoice and celebrate you new life.
But deep inside, you tell yourself and try to look happy because you aren't
Not to cry.
You don't know why
The reason of those tears.
But you look ahead and defeat your fears.

Yes, life can be so sad, and it can be forever sad..
And everything seems so wrong and bad.
You may wake up each morning with a heavy heart, a destroyed soul, and a weakened hope
And you live your monotonous day,
But keep in mind: Life cheats everything away..

Time can eat your soul away,
But it also finds it your way.

You just have to wait and see what will transpire
In different souls that will eventually expire...

And still, at the end of the day,
Time eats your pitiful soul away...