Masaya? (After Theology)

Yeah, medyo sabaw ang utak ko ngayon. Kakabasa ko lang kasi ng Chapter 3 ng theology book namin. "The Peaceful Sea" ang title. Sa loob ng dalawampung pahina ng maliliit na letra, isa lang ang tumatak sa isip ko: to be Christian is to be happy, o parang ganun na nga. Hindi photographic ang aking memorya, kaya patawad.

Ayon sa may akda ng libro na kinaiinisan ko dahil kung hindi niya isinulat ang libro niya, wala kaming babasahin para sa theo at wala kaming quiz bukas ukol dito, kailangan raw ipanganak, magbunyi, maghirap, mamatay, at muling mabuhay para makamit ang tunay na kaligayahan -- yun bang bukal sa pinakaloob ng isang tao at yun bang kaligayahang nag-uumapaw at bumabahagi sa lahat ng nakapaligid. Siyempre, dahil theology ang pinag-uusapan, para makamit ang tunay na kaligayahan, dapat buong tapang nating harapin ang tawag ng kaligayahang ito. Natatakot raw kasi tayo na mahirapan at mamatay dahil masyado na raw tayong kampante sa kung anong mayroon tayo sa ngayon. At siyempre naman, sino nga bang gustong mahirapan at mamatay, hindi ba? (At by the way, yan ang sinasabi ko sa lahat ng mga required readings ko sa Ateneo; apparently hindi ako mahilig magbasa ng mga scholarly articles)

At sabi rin sa akdang iyon, lahat ng tao ay ginawa upang tanggapin ang kaligayahan mula sa itaas. Hindi natin kayang alisin ito bilang mga tao, ngunit may kakayahan tayong talikuran ang tawag na ito at manatiling malungkot at walang pakiramdam sa buhay.


So, is religion the opium of the people?

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Wala lang.

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PH-Commute said...

Hi! Totally agree with your post. I'm a Computer Science graduate from DLSU (hehe the enemy) and I also underwent 12 units of religion. To be fair, minsan may natutunan naman ako, pero kahit ngayong nagtratrabaho na ako, hindi ko pa rin mahanapan ng silbi ung marami sa mga inaral ko noong kolehiyo.

Btw, maraming salamat po sa paglink sa site namin (PH-Commute)! We really appreciate your support. :)

Sunday, August 02, 2009

hxero said...

Actually for me nagagamit ko namn ang theology at philisophy kahit engineering course ko... Atenean din ako so napagdaanan ko mga subjects na yan hehehe... cguro dahil sa mga subjects na yan mas naging patient ako at mas naiintindihan ko kapwa ko... iniintindi ko muna mga pinagdadaanan...

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Zweihander said...

Ph-Commute: May natututunan naman ako, pero yun nga, hindi ko lang talaga alam kung saan ko ito pwedeng ma-apply. In my humblest opinion, alam ko na yung mga kailangan malaman sa Theology. You don't need to know what faith is to be faithful, right? You don't need to know what is good to do the good, right? Hindi ko lang alam, pero I think it comes to us naturally.

Of course, I support your site as a commuter. I go to your site whenever I need to go somewhere new. : )

hxero: Recollections are nice, pero they're ripoffs at 7:30 in the morning of a hot, hot Sunday. It's just hard to stay awake while your teacher is blabbering about something you already know, but apparently you don't come test time. : (

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Masaya?

Paminsan, hindi mo na alam kung magagawa mo bang sabihing masaya ka miski na napapalibutan ka ng mga kaibigan mong hindi. Tatanungin ka nila kung kumusta ka, at sasabihin mong masaya ka na. Kadalasan, sasabihin nilang

you deserve it. i'm so happy for you

o kaya nama'y

i'm happy for your happiness.

Pero alam mong hindi sila masaya dahil may mga bagay na bumabagabag sa kanila. Hindi ko alam kung tama bang maging masaya kahit na ang mga kaibigan mo ay hindi. Parang mali kasing isipin na nasa itaas ako't tumitingin pababa sa kanila. Hindi ko alam, baka mamaya'y pinalalaki ko lang itong nararamdaman ko. Simula nang maging kami, bigla kong nakita ang nakakalungkot na sitwasyon ng aking mga kaibigan. Marahil nagkataon lamang na ganito, o kaya nama'y sila'y matagal nang ganito at hindi ko lang ito "nakikita" dahil pareho lang kami ng lenteng tinitingnan sa buhay. Pare-pareho lang kaming malungkot, at masyado kaming makasarili't patuloy na itinutubog ang aming mga sarili sa putikang iyon. Masyado lang sigurong mataas ang pagtingin at paghanga ko sa mga kaibigan ko dahil sa mukha ng matinding kalungkutan, nagagawa pa nilang magpasaya at gumuhit ng mga ngiti sa mga mukha ng ibang tao.

Kung sakit na pwedeng mahawa lang sana ang kasiyahan, para naman sa wakas, ako naman ang makapagsabi nang you deserve it, I'm so happy for you.

One-Sentence Status Seven

What doesn't destroy you makes you tougher.

After a quarrel

I will try once more to revive this part of me
A part whose thoughts laid to rest.
I will try once more to unlock and set us free
A part whose whole's seen the best.

Rains

Up until now, I still can't seem to write nonchalantly as before. I don't know. I guess I'm just too preoccupied with a lot of things. My attention is tossed to and fro with meter-high waves in the stormy seas of my head. I don't know if I'm just overcomplicating things for myself. And if I am, I wish that I'm just complicating things for myself, and not for a whole lot of people.

Things haven't changed, I still think I spread myself too thinly over too many things. But I guess what's keeping me from writing here is the fact that I want to write something substantial; an entry which feelings and emotions will still be recognizable after a year or so.

I write for my own sake. I blog to keep memories alive; like water trickling down ever so slowly to keep a plant alive. Water is the source of all life in this world. Rain is a gift from the heavens for a sunflower that is desperate for water, however



too much water can drown a plant as well.

Tatay, Miss na Kita

Why is it that you'll never know how important a person is to you until they're gone? Even if you know someone is important in your life, you will never really measure, if it is measurable, how valuable a person is to you. Is someone's worth measured by how frequently and how intense your longing is for that person? Is it a sign that a person is most dear to you if you yearn for their presence?

Today is Tatay's 12th death anniversary. He passed away when I was nine years old. He was fondly called Toyo by my family since almost always, he had those unexplainable fits -- toyo. I remember the same spot where I cried when we received the news on his passing. Nanay and I mourned as we gently gave him our flowers as he descended to the earth, to the arms of our loving creator. I remember the cloudy day of August 3, 1997, a day when a light drizzle became a heavy, short shower. It was a day when I saw Nanay cry silently as she looked up the sky and bade Tatay a final, endearing farewell.

Twelve years ago, I lost the person whom I called my father.

I lost the person I sought refuge to after a day full of teases and tears. I lost the person whom I told all my little victories, the small times I conquered the seas of my insecurites in my simple life back then. Twelve years ago, I lost a part of myself, never to be returned forever.

Here I am, standing incomplete under all the realities of life.

Tatay may no longer be here, but he'll be forever the one and only tatay for the rest of my life.


Tatay, masaya ka ba sa kung naging ano ako ngayon?
I love you Tatay. Sana masaya ka na ngayong magkasama na kayo ulit ni Nanay.

Hello, Hello

I think I need to start writing again.